Anonymous asked: Castle/Becks- 73
73 - I can’t
"Daddy." His youngest called out to him and he lifted his eyes from Nikki and saved his document as he placed the laptop on top of the desk. "I can’t do this."
"Can’t do what, bug?" He asks as he pats his lap. She walks toward him and he hoists her up, biting back a groan as she settles onto his lap, holding the sheet out to him. "Mafemetics." She says as she drops the paper onto his arm.
He knows she can; Hanna is the smartest kid in her class. She’s constantly coming home with A+’s and stickers she’s proud of. Math was the least of her worries. He quickly glances at the sheet of questions, most of which on a given day she could shout out to him while performing the hardest of tasks.
"Hanna," he sighs as he rubs her back gently. He knows he shouldn’t be coddling her. When she was born, Jack was too young to react the way she was. But for six years, Hanna had been the baby. Everyone around her was older. With the surprise of the new baby, the attention was slowly being taken from her and she didn’t like it one bit. "You know what 5 minus 5 is, bug."
She lets out the softest of sighs, her head dipping downward as she plays with his shirt button. “Zero, Daddy.” She answers almost immediately, licking her lips.
It’s hard, he thinks. It’s the first time he’s ever gone through something like this. When Kate became pregnant with James, Alexis was over the moon with the news. When Hanna was conceived, James seemed more interested in the new toys he was getting to distract him while his parents were distracted with their new addition than the baby. He’d never had to deal with a child who, upon hearing news of her new brother, had told him simply that she was the baby and then slowly began to revert back to that state.
He and Kate had spoken to many professionals about it, most of which said it was normal and to “let them grow out of it” but Hanna seemed more and more inclined to show her parents that she needed to be the center of attention. With only a couple months before the baby was born, he was slowly starting to doubt the “growing out” he’d been promised.
"See, baby?" He asked, cringing at his choice of words. "You can do it. You’re a big girl." For a moment, he hated how attached to him Hanna was. Kate would be able to handle this a lot better if it were James. He had no idea what to say, how to phrase it nicely. You’re getting a brother and that’s that seemed sort of mean.
"You’re not going to forget me when baby is born, right?" She asks suddenly, and he feels his heart drop. "A boy in my class says his mommy and daddy don’t pay attention to him no more."
God. He knows he shouldn’t be doing this, should be letting her mature on her own but she’s his baby too. He tightens his grip around her and presses a kiss to her forehead, shaking his head. “God, no.” He tells her. “Never, never. Hanna. Mommy and I aren’t going to stop paying attention to you or James. The baby is just going to need a little more than you two do. He won’t be able to talk or walk or eat food like you do so we have to take care of him a different way.”
She doesn’t say anything as he pulls away, just stares at him with Kate’s eyes and he sighs gently as she curls into his chest quietly, her homework forgotten. “Okay,” she says finally, though there’s something in her tone that tells him she’s not entirely convinced. “I luff you, Daddy.” She whispered as she wrapped her arms around his front the best he could. He squeezes her tight.
"I love you too, bug." He whispers, pressing a kiss to her head.